Intern Year

Alison Cesarz, MD Alison Cesarz, MD (1 Posts)

Resident Physician Contributing Writer

University of California San Diego School of Medicine


Alison (Al) Cesarz is finishing her intern year in psychiatry at the University of California San Diego. Her clinical interests include early childhood trauma, the adolescent and young adult age group, mental health in the Latino population and psychotherapy. Another passion of hers is the mental health and well being of medical students and residents. She is open and accessible to sharing her own treatment journey, collaborating on methods for improvement, and working to break mental health stigma within the walls of medicine. In her free time, she enjoys reading fiction/nonfiction, writing, trail running, cooking and exploring the natural wonders of her new home city.




Shining a Light on Medical Student and Resident Depression

During my fourth year of medical school, I was completely unaware that I was suffering from clinical depression. Even now as I write this, I struggle to put my finger on how it all started. Was my appetite the first thing to go? Or the loss of enjoyment in socializing and sex? Maybe it was all three at once. It is truly too hard to tell.

Handshakes and Shaking Doubt: Reflecting on Being a Woman in Medicine

In the 1950s, my grandmother wanted to be a doctor. She asked her father for her dowry money, wanting to use it instead to get her medical degree to become the first female doctor in her hometown. She married another doctor and practiced from an office below her home, accepting vegetables and dry-cleaning services as pay.

Battling Burnout and Our Quest for Perfection

Two months ago, I woke up one morning at 5:30 a.m., as usual. I played my gym motivation playlist in the shower, ate oatmeal for breakfast, and headed out the door, as usual. I swore at the car that swerved into the lane in front of me without signaling, as usual. An hour later, I pre-rounded on one of my favorite patients, a man with wide, childlike eyes who had a great deal of difficulty expressing his feelings.

You Are Not Alone

The faint glow that is the light at the end of the tunnel hits my face as I realize that intern year is almost over. One would think that having been through the personal loss I have — losing two beloved older brothers at a young age — that intern year would be more than manageable. Yet this past year has been, for me, a chaotic roller coaster ride.

Ryan Yarnall, MD Ryan Yarnall, MD (1 Posts)

Resident Physician Contributing Writer

OU School of Community Medicine


Ryan is a second-year internal medicine resident at OU School of Community Medicine in Tulsa, Oklahoma. He had published a few articles for in-Training as a medical student and wishes to continue writing during the busy times of residency and beyond.