Fellow Physician Contributing Writer
Emory University School of Medicine
Dr. Miller is a pathologist, epidemiologist, and fellow in transfusion medicine at Emory University School of Medicine. She will be entering the CDC Epidemic Intelligence Service.
On St. Patrick’s Day 2014, New York’s coldest in a decade, I was a grass snake banished from the fair isle of pediatrics. In the National Residency Matching Program, just half of one percent of approximately 2,500 pediatrics slots across 194 programs remained unmatched, something like four total positions nationwide.
I am an intern physician currently enrolled in a residency program, writing anonymously for fear of of retribution. I am also chronically injured and disabled. In my time off from work, I’ve had the chance to reflect on being injured in residency, and one particular incident comes to mind.
“Good morning, I’m Dr. Watt and I’m going to be taking care of you today.”
Dear intern: I see you. Yes — you over there. That unsuspecting look on your face tells me exactly what you must be thinking. You are no longer a medical student which means you are no longer invisible, or, at best, ancillary.
Two months ago, I woke up one morning at 5:30 a.m., as usual. I played my gym motivation playlist in the shower, ate oatmeal for breakfast, and headed out the door, as usual. I swore at the car that swerved into the lane in front of me without signaling, as usual. An hour later, I pre-rounded on one of my favorite patients, a man with wide, childlike eyes who had a great deal of difficulty expressing his feelings.
The faint glow that is the light at the end of the tunnel hits my face as I realize that intern year is almost over. One would think that having been through the personal loss I have — losing two beloved older brothers at a young age — that intern year would be more than manageable. Yet this past year has been, for me, a chaotic roller coaster ride.
Originally, I wasn’t going to enter the fellowship match. I had started my psychiatry residency fully intending to do the four years, then maybe a fellowship. Then, in my second year while sharing dinner with friends who had just certified lists for the general residency match, my plans to go into child and adolescent psychiatry came up.
Resident Physician Contributing Writer
Albany Medical College
Xiomara P. Urban M.D. is currently a PGY-III in the General Psychiatry Residency program at Albany Medical Center. She has successfully matched in Child and Adolescent Psychiatry at UCSF, and will be starting there in July 2019. At work, she is notable for her enthusiasm, and playful curiosity. This tends to manifest itself with unexpected compliments, and sporadic investigations into changes in their grooming habits. She brings this same energy and inquisitiveness to all her patients regardless of age. Her main interest is in effecting systems of care in order to better serve those they are designed for.
